What happens next?
Where do we go from here?
I'm waiting...
At least I'm back - fully back - now. :)
Hope it stays that way.
Water is a powerful element - it gives life even to a fire-wielder like me.
No wonder I love Una so much...she's of the ocean and is a natural life giver.
Yes, she is also a destroyer - just like the mighty ocean - but she also gives life
instead of only taking it.
I guess if I want things to thrive I just need to keep my astral paws off of them...
anything I touch gets lessened...weakened...changed in a bad way...or ceases to exist.
*sigh*
I just wish I could enjoy beauty and wonder without destroying or marring it...this
causes me just as much, if not more, pain than my loneliness.
I guess that's why I'm lonely - the universe cant afford to have me destroy a soul
out of my love. Not that I want to destroy anything (except perhaps this infernal
machine and my frail physical form) - I don't. I wish to everything that I didn't
have this Touch of Death...but I do.
And the sad part is, it's not a conscious interaction that harms what I encounter - it's
automatic without me even knowing it, and it's only after it begins to change that I know
I've affected it adversely.
No wonder the movies aren't as good lately.
Fucking hell.
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