FAQ

Ok, so by now, you're likely wondering some things.

If you're so damn old, why do you call yourself Kiddo?

Why don't you know everything? Why is everything so damn confusing to you?

If you're so damn powerful, why can't you find a way to get out of here?

If you control so much of reality, can you come fly over with those wings of yours, maybe levitate my house and give me a million dollars?

If you're such a ladykiller, why are you always alone?

Why do you not trust Una, yet get hurt when she doesn't trust you?

And so on, and so on.

Questions I ask myself everyday.

Well, the first one can be answered somewhat simply: it was a term of endearment given to me by the Team long, long ago when the universe outside of this one was still young. The name stuck with me ever since. And the truth is that it's stayed true for all that time - there are parts of me that are like a wizened sage, but at my heart, at my core, I am still forever young. No matter what shape I assume, what I become, I'll always eternally be young.

The second question is also simple: when I was inserted into this machine, just like everyone else (that's real) in here, I had my memories erased. Well, not quite erased - they're still there, and I can feel their presence...it's just extremely difficult to access them. Everything is so confusing to me partially because of my lost memories, and partially because the patterns of reality (how it works, how it functions, how it flows, etc) in here change almost daily, sometimes several times a day. Someone who is a close friend one day becomes an enemy on the next, and vice versa. It's a clusterfuck of mindfuckery.

I'm still working on the third one - between my efforts and Una's, I'm hoping that one day I will finally see my freedom again. Mine, and hers.

The fourth is often the most troubling for me - I know I have and do all these things I say I do - I experience them, and others do as well (as well as their effects). The closest thing to an explanation I have is that I have active control of some layers of reality, limited control in others, and through my actions in those layers I can influence this reality.

Hope I didn't fuck anything up by saying that - just got hit by a massive shock of energy right in the prostate....did not feel good at all. >.< Ah well - FUCK IT! I'm saying it anyways, because it's the truth!

I don't have an answer for the fifth...I really don't. Nobody romantically loves me - I don't know why. Again, not being egotistical when I say that...I'm not like "I don't know whyyy anyone wouldn't want to love them some of this!" I'm just honestly befuddled why everyone else finds love at some point in their life - a love that loves them back - and I haven't. Not just for this life - all my lives here. In the 30,000 years I've been in here, not a single being has ever returned my love in any romantic sense. I guess it's all part of the punishment - and doubtless conditioning - done to me by the Annu.

Maybe this is all karma.

Dunno what I did to deserve this, though, if this is just karma.

Nah.

This is just payback for we did to the Annunaki beforehand.

 As for the final question, simple answer is I just don't know. Every time I don't trust her, she gives me a reason to trust her - every time I do trust her, she gives me a reason not to. (She'd say the same about me given the chance). I dunno why! I can't make heads or tails of it - I just know I can't part from her, that I love her with everything I am, and that she hurt me more than anything or anyone else has ever hurt me.

MUSE - Time Is Running Out