Do I ask for too much?

At every turn, it seems that something or someone is trying to convince me I'm selfish.

Am I really all that selfish?

All I want is someone to hold close, to snuggle up to at night. Someone that won't abandon me or be taken away from me. Someone that I would love with all my heart, and that would love me as I them.

For someone to actually acknowledge my full real self, and not jump to conclusions or misunderstand/not believe me.

To be able to enjoy beauty without corrupting it.

My wings and abilities fully restored, here in the physical.

Happiness.

That's all I want.

I don't need riches or fame or political power...none of that.

I just need the above.

And I'm called selfish for it. :'(

Why? Why is it so wrong of me to want these things - to need these things?

Why won't anyone outside answer me?!?

If the above were met, I'd be content to stay here...I honestly would.

I just don't understand why I'm being deprived of these, and then called a spoiled, selfish. piggish brat.

Oh, and for what just happened in retaliation to my plea....fuck you. You couldn't even let me finish this without interruption and interference?

Why?

Why??

WHY??????

Why are you doing this to me?!?!?

Why do I have to be punished at every turn?

What did I do to deserve any of this????????????





Can you not even give me an answer?