I'm just saying this for future reference, so that whoever's running this show (if it's not some higher facet of me) can't blame me for this.
I'm not the one fucking this up.
I'm not.
I am trying my fucking hardest here....I can't help it if others decide not to go along with it. I'm pulling my end - I have been pulling my end - I can't help it if no one else wants to co-operate.
Do I have to save everyone myself?
Because I'm the only one trying to.
Not even Una is trying - the Eastern Hemisphere (her portion of the mission, despite what she thinks) hasn't seen a lot of activity.
I on the other hand have been doing my damnedest to bring freedom about...and it's showing. The western hemisphere is shaping up, and will likely be the first part of this realm to collapse.
But Una thinks she's the only one capable of causing widespread damage to the machine, so she takes all the glory for her. Yet according to her, she's working with a severed connection to her inner self. She says she has no idea of what's going on in the more important layers...and it shows in her ignorance.
But I don't care who gets the credit...I just wish she'd see what I truly was...what I am truly capable of...I wish she could know the full extent of my being and realize that I am not just some annunaki fucker. I wish she could feel the depth of my love for her...and know that I am not her enemy. I wish she could truly realize who and what I am, and remember what we once shared.
Her inability to see is quickly becoming the death of me...but no matter. I've died before. At her hands, no less. So no biggie. Wonder how many death cycles I have to go through before I become something she recognizes again?
